Criminal

And this type of love isn't rational, its physical.

Click on photo and say hello to YouTube ;-)

Current fav song. Thehehe. The only latest english song on my iPod. Yang lain semua Korean songs and few old times fav songs which less than 10 je lagu english. Like ohh myy. -.-"

My weekend was blast. Have my siblings at home. And got my uni friend come over for few days here. Percayalah, each time jumpa kawan uni mesti rasa macam baru 19 tahun - rasa energetic awesome gitu. 

Meet Lin and Aisyu.

Jumpa limabelasminit pun dah meriah gila. I realised, most of my photo mesti nak buat 'peace' apehal tah. So starting from this moment, I'll try my best not to make that sign lagi. Fighting! Today is the end of October which I might say, this month is a pleasant month for me. Dapat few good news, memories yang takkan lupa and it seems like a blessed month of all even not my birth month. Alhamdulillah.

November is the month of public holiday. Hehe. Selalu check organizer. Till then. ;-)

Assalammualaikum

Just wanna say Anneyong

So after years I'm living in my safe zone, I finally cut my hair. 

The best part of it, I can have both short and long hair depend on my mood. Cuma I can't deny dari belakang it looks weird cuma I just ignored it - buat pekak even I know my mom hated it and somemost said better off without the long hair. *straight face*

Another life target have been crossed - trip to Korea. Now I am targeting to improve myself. I am thinking of taking chinese/mandrin classes - don't have any solid reason but I am hunger of learning nak pergi class segala. Nak sambung master I still nak gain working experience lagi. And I need to work so I can earn money untuk cancel those wishlists and have to do thing before get married thingy. Geezzzz. Nak bungee jumping, nak naik cruise, nak tawan Kota Kinabalu, nak diving tengok nemo cari penyu (ini pengaruh dari ex boss). Have to, have to!

And if orang tanya which country yang I betul-betul nak pergi, I wanna go Maldives, Paris and Mecca. Target jangka panjang. Gila kalau betul pegi semua tempat, memang tak kumpul duit kawin sampai mati. LOL

Anyway, last few weeks I ada dalam state yang sangat negative which I selalu rasa I teruk blablabla, kena laknat bagai blablabla. And after a while I macam fikir why I selalu nak consider apa orang fikir, sampaikan I sendiri jadi manusia yang lack of confident. I selalu rasa guilty tak memasal, padahal obviously it is not my fault. I hilang myself yang so called periang, I lost the shine in me yang usually it attract others. Bila dah a week holiday, bila dah serabut balik kerja, 3 days ago I've made my mind;

I tanak taken aback by anything, how much it hurts I'll swallow it, how happy myself I'll cherish every second of it, I just want to live my life without worries. Worrying is a waste of time. It doesn't change anything and makes things better, it only makes things worse.

Cuma kalau pasal kerja, I boleh risau gelabah ayam segala la kot, tak sanggup nak kena marah dengan boss. (T.T)

Next entry, I'm going to blog about my vacation to Korea. And a day trip to Singapore time Deepavali eve tuari. Geez, I love jalan-jalan ♥ 

Current favorite song - the emotional song from lie to me.

Jangan cakap apehal mak cik ni dengar lagu Korea macam paham aje. Well, sebab I tengok drama Lie to me ni, feel dia lebih. Then I usually baca English translation dia, pasal tu kalau dengar juta kali rasa faham. Hehe. 

Till then, happy weekend all ♥

p.s: Adik dua dua balik rumah, rasa teruja ada kawan cakap. Mak abah pun teruja sampai masak semua sedap-sedap. ;-)

Reality

So well, my vacation is over. Back to reality. 

Reality check #1
Working tomorrow.

Reality check #2
No more double triple shirt and sweater for upcoming days.

Reality check #3
I am gonna miss halimatun and yuen. ;-)

Reality check #4
I am broke!

Reality check #5
Autumn in my heart. It hurts.

Pendek Rambut

Assalammualaikum.

Meh sini siapa yang kata kita tak boleh rambut pendek, meh sini, kakak nak babab sorang sorang. Zaman early 20 kita, kita rambut pendek tau. Pendek yang memang jarang gila nak cecah sampai bahu pun. Paling panjang adalah sipi sipi nak kena bahu, then goodbye kena gunting. Dalam setahun memang kalau boleh tiap 2 bulan nak potong rambut segala, tak potong memang rasa tak tenang.

Sampailah satu saat, I tekad tak gunting rambut drastically for 8 months akhirnya rambut panjang menjurai. And sekarang I tak pernah terfikir nak gunting rambut drastically, memang kalau gian sangat nak gunting rambut memang trim sikit-sikit atau buat minor changes la kan. Rambut depan selalu ada sebab I tak confident bila dahi bebas tanpa rambut. Apehal tah.

Tapi bila tengok banyak hot chicks rambut depan takda tapi maintain hot, memang senyap senyap tekad nak bela rambut depan. Sampai bila bhaii duduk dalam kelompok rambut ada depan konon-konon jepong koreang segala. Bhahaha. Wa makan tempe budu asam pedas je weh bukan sushi kimbap kimchi segala. Heleh rambut je pun, apa kaitan dengan makanan?

Well, I am planning to change my hair style as I am dead boring with my hair. Still thinking what is the best hair style yang appropriate untuk I pergi kerja, yet macam comel, yet tak pendek sangat and yet look different. Enlighten me. ♥

And yep, I boleh rambut pendek, cuma I tak mahu je lah, bukan tarak berani nak keluar kepompong. Tskk

I am a Sagattarius

As a #Sagittarius you never intend to hurt anyone,but the truth is all important to you,and you never hesitate to keep it real.

As a #Sagittarius nothing can keep you from enjoying life and people and being suc cessful in any number of fields.

As a #Sagittarius you are some of the happiest people in the zodiac anyone will ever meet.

As a #Sagittarius your relationships would benefit, if you were less argumentative and more open to the view of your partner.

#Sagittarius likes: laws and meanings, and freedom of action the thought of not being in a relationship.

A #Sagittarius female will hide her emotions from you, but don’t make the mistake of hiding yours from her.

#Sagittarius don't really have a filter when it comes to what they say, They have no problem telling you exactly what's on their mind!

A #sagittarius woman won't waste her time, she'll date someone she deserves-to-be-with not wants-to-be-with.

When arguing with you, a #Sagittarius will say harsh things that they know will cut you deep.

#Sagittarius survive through tough times through self-motivation.

#Sagittarius - Think things over thoroughly before making a move. The best decision might be no decision at all.

#Sagittarius will judge the entire situation, analyze it's probable outcome and still believe that things will get better.

If #Sagittarius feel as though they are putting more effort into a relationship than you are, they will stop putting in effort all together.

#Sagittarius are the coolest of all, for neither they go out of their way to apologize nor do they expect the same from others.

A #Sagittarius can turn into a whiny child when bored.

#Sagittarius lovers dont like stale relationships and will always try some way to make it fresh again.

#Sagittarius rarely show negative emotions, but they may become temperamental if they are bored for long periods of time.

A #Sagittarius won't care if you don't like them. They have their eye on the prize and don't worry about the petty drama.

#Sagittarius are quite remarkably lacking in jealousy and possessiveness.

The older a #Sagittarius get, the more they ask "Who can you trust now a days?"

As a #Sagittarius You want a close relationship with your partner, but you won’t put up with a mate who attempts to control you.

When a #Sagittarius lies, they feel a huge guilt in their heart.

#Sagittarius women have a quick and aggressive temper, when angry they need to be alone

#Sagittarius cant stand a nagging person. So don't feel offended if you're left by yourself after you complain to a Sag.

Once a #Sagittarius is pissed leave them alone for awhile, they will come back around in no time.

#Sagittarius are stubborn so they won't care if you're mad at them

#Sagittarius will spend a time with few options to choose the potential partner.

/Taken from twitter.

/I am a typical Sagittarius girl 

Kena Laknat

Mungkin sebab aku selalu sakitkan hati orang, aku kena laknat. Tak dapat kecap bahagia dalam hidupcinta. Sampai sekarang aku fikir, laknat malang ini nak berbekas kat hidup aku sampai bila? Sampai aku dah dimaafkan? Sampai aku betul betul dah lupa apa makna bahagia? 

Kadang kadang, suka aku maki dalam hati, salahkan hati/perasaan sendiri yang tak penah nak sync dengan otak/akal. Otak fikir lain, hati minta lain. Macam ditelan mati emak, diluah mati ayah - nak bunuh diri dosa besar. 

Kadang kadang aku pun tak faham, kenapa kena ada rasa bersalah, kenapa kena buat orang rasa bersalah. Padahal semua orang buat salah semua orang pernah menyalahkan orang. Biasalah, karma.

Kadang kadang aku lagi tak paham, apesal dalam setiap bulan mesti ada satu point yang aku akan jadi kalah pada emosi, padahal aku well aware akan kehadiran saat saat ini, tapi tetap kalah pada keadaan. Nak emosi lebih-lebih pulak, sambil tarik tisu dari kotak tisu lap peluh sebab buat arobik ikut rentak musik tadi. 

Malam!

Relationship stuffs

Where is this love? I can't see it, I can't touch it. I can't feel it. I can hear it. I can hear some words, but I can't do anything with your easy words.

Closer (2004)

And I was like, yes it is true. Usually it is easy to say something, but believe me, us girls prefer when you show the love rather than saying it. Or at least it works for me. I might be melting like an ice cream in the oven. Bhahaha.

Tell me, am I just like typical girl who always looking for perfection in relationship until we forget the real meaning of a relationship? Relationship suppose to have the ups and downs just like life. They have their beautiful parts and the fugly parts.

Perfection, is it ever existed? Especially when it comes to human being. Blergh.

I can never understand how would two different people who put their status as 'in love' synchronize themselves? Maybe it is 'love' that can make them adapt with each other. You're my other half bla bla bla. I can never live without you, another bla bla bla. Seriously, I can never understand this. And I can never myself when I'm in love - that sucks.

Yeah, talking. Communicating. Relationship stuff. If we were in a relationship I would become a weird scary version of myself. My throat starts constricting. The walls start throbbing. It's like a peanut allergy, like an emotional peanut allergy.

No String Attached (2011)

Sometimes I got this thought that relationship and happily ever after thingy are bullshit. But I don't expect myself to be alone AND lonely when I get old, somehow I need to learn to open up my mind and my heart and accept the possibility of getting hurt. Someday. Someday Insya Allah.

p.s: My colleague are obsessed with Dadali - Disaat ku mulai mencintamu. Oh repeat kot lagu tu. Cinta-cinta-cinta. 

p.p.s: I am addicted to snooker application on my iPod. Tsskkkk

p.p.p.s: Semalam I lepak with my friends, and one of them asked me, Diana what is your relationship status. I paused myself after minutes, I left that question unanswered. Why it does matter at the first place? 

New Layout

Assalammualaikum.

At last I am done editing my layout. Eleh, padahal guna semula layout lama cuma konon-konon beri nafas baru. Heuheu. One more week to go for preparation. One more week to suffer with the QAQC thingy. Then I am off for my holiday! Hehe. Been plan for it since the beginning of 2011. Excited.

Sampai sanggup beli camera baru untuk this moment. Cepatlah masa berlalu.

Here, I would like to ask for your help. Bila tengok balik bloglist I, I am not sure either you people is still blog. Sebab I rasa I'm using ages ago punya blog link. Kena update the link. So drop me your url if you want to be listed in my lame blog. Hehe. For those bloggers yang I follow kat blogger, insya-Allah gonna update it tonight if ada masa. 

Yes, I tak suka ada chatbox sebab I hate advertisement harap maklum. Bukan tak nak menyokong industri blogshop - but I rasa penat dengan spam and all those stuffs. Blog-walking I suka, tapi I rather jadi silent reader kot. ;-)

Hokey, I'm off to kenduri with my mom. Later loves ♥

RIP Steve Jobs

Assalammualaikum

Biasanya, time bangun pagi siap-siap, mandi, pilih baju. I selalu dengar lagu. I jarang dengar radio kecuali dalam kereta on-the-way pergi kerja balik kerja time lunch. But most of it I selalu dengar iPod I. Lagu yang I suka I dengar. Lagi satu I memang anti betul dengan advertisement.

Motif, yes, I guna benda yang Steve Job invent. Walaupun cuma sebuah iPod. Nak iPad tak mampu pakai lagi. Nak MacBook macam dah tua-tua gini tak guna lagi dah. Pagi sampai petang kerja, malam penat cuma online bila perlu je. Ipod I tu dah macam bestfriend sebab if I sorang kat bilik takut nak tidur, I dengar lagu sampai tertidur. Heuheu. 

R.I.P Steve Jobs. Without you, I probably don't have the chance to have 2 iPod with my name graved to it. Heuheu. Yes, I have an iPod touch and iPod shuffle. ♥

& I'm using itunes to play music on my laptop. I wish some day I've got the chance to have a Macbook, insya Allah, it is on my wish lists since I was 21. ;-)

Oh, not using an iPhone because, my mom bought me a Blackberry few years back and it is still in a good condition even dah repair dua kali but I am comfortable with it. Nvm, I am okay with BB plus iPod. Both darling gadgets. 

Yesterday, taken using iPod touch 4th generation. Hehe

Oh, my condition is terrible now. I am at the middle of my down time. Work-loads, hormones and life doesn't falls perfectly now. Memang some of them dah perasan I'm being aloof now. And I don't give damn to unimportant things - ampun to those yang ada terasa dengan my attitude now, I can't think much right now. I just can't wait for a date next week and long vacation on the other week. Looking forward for it, at least it gives me hope that things gonna be better soon. Better soon. Better soon. FML.

p.s: Sure rambut I bakal ditumbuhi uban uban. Mungkin kalau straight I stress gini, possibility I blonde by the end of this year adalah positive. Heuheu. Apehal blonde? 

Donna Karan - Spring Summer 2012

Some that caught my eyes, the one that makes me feel like singing, "If I was a rich girl nanananananana"

Donna Karan ♥

Average Diana goes to fashion thingy

So well, puas tengok I? Mind my muka busuk, pronunciation tah apa-apa macam lidah terbelit. Heuheu. Assalammualaikum people ♥

I am so excited until I really want to blog this tonight. Thanks to a friend yang inviting me to accompany him to this event, kalau ikut I - sure I swimming kat atas katil the whole afternoon tadi. At first I am not thinking pun to take photo as I masuk not as a press, so actually tak boleh ambil gambar. But then until I saw this one dress, I terus on camera and snap segala yang lalu kat stage tu.

Please I want one of wedding dress warna pink. Heuheu. Still I rasa suka kat dress tu, even I tak tau siapa designer dia. RUGI!

Present you, Amir Luqman and the dresses that he design. ♥

Look at his high waist pant, I've been look for it like everywhere but still tak pernah jumpa size yang sesuai sebab I have a small waist tapi tinggi (kot). Among all of his design yang dia bawa, I suka yang third from left.  Elegant!

Another photo of his design yang I dapat snap dengan senonoh. Most of it like a failure sebenarnya, I just snap aje. I dont have any photographer talent maybe. Other photos are on my Facebook account. This is the edited version. :)

First one and the last one are the same design. The veil itself pun dah macam kelasss gitu. Hehe. And yes, I do grab the chance to take photo with him! 

Why I tak pakai heels, why?!! Sampai sekarang I regret. (T.T) I felt so small among the fashion people. Lesson taken, pergi even wedding, perlu pakai heels no matter what. Wajib.

Here I know about BDA which it stands for Bumiputra Designers Association. And how important fashion magazine untuk designers semua. Peramah with everyone adalah perlu. Oh my, why-lah I tak berseni untuk design baju?

Anyways, I had fun today. I met new friends too! Hehe. Thanks to both of them for the day. Opss, I miss to mention their name, meet A'zi and Haekal!

p.s: Malaysian's designer wedding dress are way better than Memey's Vera Wang wedding dress. #justanopinion

p.p.s: Tittle sungguh geli. Skin tone sekarang sungguh geli. Skinny sungguh geli. Video lagilah GELI. Huahua

Hello October!