Jealous II

Assalammualaikum!

So last entry I am being so sarcastic and sambil-sambil tu meminta maaf which I consist as I really mean it. Heh. So today, I would like to share my opinion about wanita dan tahap jealousy. LOL. Sebab I keep repeating this thing for few days and I just think that I should share it here.

6 years ago, I'm having a relationship with a dude. At first it is so easy as I dengan dia sama tempat belajar, so tiap-tiap hari nampak muka, tau apa dia buat and we both macam adalah terberangan about getting married blabla. Until, habis matrikulasi - all the roller coaster begins. Bila dah jauh, dia ada kawan dia - I ada kawan I. So all we both need at that moment is trust. I am too immature at that moment so macam selalu I dengan that dude gaduh because of trust issues.

Selalu things yang I fikir, dia buat apa? Ada flirt dengan perempuan lain tak? Kenapa perlu amik gambar macam tu dengan girls? Kenapa selalu sangat lepak dengan girls sampai tengah malam? You know what, it tiresome bila kita tak trust orang - and it is just waste of time to fall in love but there's no trust between those couple. I ingat lagi i makan hati gila dengan that dude, macam-macam jadi - gaduh tu dah macam biasa sangat, drama lagi. Euw. Nak ingat balik pun I rasa malu, sebab you know I'm being so immature dulu. Sure that dude macam stress je time dengan I dulu. But we both managed to be together for almost 4 years until I've made my mind to move on. But dari that dude, I learn a lot of thing - a lot yang made me stronger now. Thank you Syed Nadzeem!

I can proudly say I sekarang dah boleh jadi more considerate in relationship and I tak buat benda bodoh lagi just because of gaduh dengan boyfriend. Pernah kau makan 12 biji panadol sebab stress dengan situation kau? Bodoh I, immature I waktu dulu sampai macam tu. *lempang* Sure kalau kawan-kawan UTM baca benda ni kenal sangat I macam mana dulu. Fragile, weak, sangat dependent.

Sejak tu, I belajar jadi kental. Kalau sakit hati macam mana pun I cuba untuk jadi positif. Tak ada masa nak layan kerenah hati geli-geli sebab sumpah macam membazir masa serta ia boleh menyebabkan proses penuaan menjadi cepat. Percayalah.

Tipulah kalau I kata I ni tak rasa jeles langsung. Tipu gila. Tapi it depend on how we deal with our jealousy. Semua orang memang akan jeles once dia dah mula sayang - tapi kena control. Takkanlah sebab dah mula bercinta semua friendship dengan orang berlainan jantina kena stop. Gila apa, baik simpan kekasih sendiri dalam poket buat jadi patung - bukan orang. Normal people need friends and what I've learn normal guys love to flirt or at least mesti tengok hot girls. Deal with it - tu macam lumrah. Macam perempuan yang can't say no to shopping and boleh freaking out sebab handbags. 

Maybe sebab dah banyak kali sangat I rasa down dulu, I macam rasa it is not worth it to be unhappy just because of someone else. Lagipun, in relationship - dont really give your 100% we never know what will happen in the future. Tapi jangan risau - sooner or later mesti jumpa the right one sebab semua orang hidup berpasangan. Everyone deserve a happy ending - even tak adalah macam fairy tales.

Lastly, I terbaca balik this entry and yes I am still agree - you cannot own a person all by yourself. 

So chillex, kalau betul orang tu untuk kau - berjuta hot girls, rich boys kawan dia, keliling dia - sure confirm dia kawin dengan kau jugak. Jodoh people, kita cuma rancang tapi Allah yang tentukan. So chillex.

Enough said.