30 April 2010

Boyfriend


Sepatutnya entry ini wujud waktu hari jadi baby satu tahun baby theo, tapi sebab mak bapak dia sibuk-sibuk bergaduh dua-dua na keras kepala lagi-lagi si bapak dia, entry yang panjang berjela yang sepatutnya menunjukkan rasa cinta terpaksa dibatalkan. Batal-batal, sebab saya pun hangin ego tak nak tunjuk hati sendiri macam tisu jadi tak payah tunjuk rasa cinta waktu itu. Sembunyi rasa cinta dalam segitiga bermuda dalam hati. (oh kalau marah pun awak masih ada spot dalam hati - tp tersembunyi dalam-dalam lah kan)

Semua tahu boyfie diana, si Hakim Kamal. Budak fakulti bla bla bla, pemalu bla bla bla, kecil bla bla bla and bla bla bla. Heh, dia bukan artis, tak feymes, dia tak hensem, dia bukan paling baik, tapi dia tetap no #1 untuk saya. Kalau nombor satu untuk semua sure tangan pun tak sanggup nak tumbuk semua.

Hokey. First time nampak dia dekat keropok lekor belakang utm. Belakang okey bukan tempat yang macam busuk belakang pasar tapi cendol dia sedap. So tengah gembira makan cendol dengan kawan kelas. Satu bunch of lelaki gunung datang tegur Yanti. And dalam tangan message-message jantan lain, terperasan si Hakim but what the heck. Takkan la on spot nak cakap mari jadi boyfriend saya. Ape jadah? Oh, itu waktu awal semester tahun 2. Habis kat situ je kot.

Dah nak akhir-akhir tahun 3. Sebab baru lepas bercerai dengan ex boyfriend yang gila damn mujur aku tak nampak muka kau lagi i bertekad pegi minta nombor strangers so that boleh buat dadah baru tak pun jadi bounce guy pun cara. Ok, starting memang i macam bitch sebab dah tekad awal-awal nak cari bounce guy. Heh heh. Who cares?

But knowing hakim, he is different. Straight macam pembaris, pemalu macam daun semalu, getik macam cacing berjoget, kuat senyum macam orang atas pelamin. Yes, he makes me happy when i really do need someone with me. And another few weeks knowing him, i realised that i started to trust him and maybe a crush. Too fast tapi tak tipu kadang-kadang tengok muka Hakim ni pun dah rasa macam nak tarik pipi dia sebab dia suka act pemalu bagai.

Sekali lagi cakap, dia bukan boyfriend paling bagus dalam dunia sebab dia tidur 10 jam sehari dan bangun pukul 3 kadang-kadang bangun pukul 5. And makanan lunch i akan dijamah lepas dia bangun so tiap-tiap hari i akan berlapar dalam bilik tunggu dia bangun. Heh. Kalau makan dulu kejap lagi mesti dia cakap, "Terpaksalah i puasa hari ini sebab tak ada teman makan." Sungguh gedik itu hakim. Heeee. Jadi hari-hari pun macam ini. Kan dah bilang, dia bukan boyfriend terbaik kalau bab tidur.

Tapi-tapi, lepas satu buruk dia, ada juta-juta baik dia. Heeee. Kalau lepas tunggu dia bangun i dah sumpah gila marah mesti rasa macam nak pegi gigit-gigit orang. And tiap kali tu juga dia bersabar dengar i bebel like few hours. Heh. Tapi he deserve it kot. Tapi serious, mana nak jumpa makhluk penyabar yang boleh tahan dengan perangai moody with extra psycho kadang-kadang. Lagi-lagi best thing about Hakim, dia macam neutraliser i tau. Bila i marah macam gunung berapi, dia akan buat muka saya tak bersalah jangan marah saya lepas tu kuatkan radio sambil buat muka tolong jangan marah saya lagi tolong. Lepas tu sedar-sedar i dah ketawa. Macam dia ada baca spell - ketawalah kau ketawa. Benci betul dengan trick dia gini. Tapi bakal rindu esok. ;-(

Hakim ada lagi satu habit, the more dia duduk dengan someone the more he will be like that someone. Kadang-kadang rasa secara official i dah ada kembar lain mak lain hari lahir. Tapi most of the thing akan sama. Pernah ke korang pegi karoke mula-mula i pilih lagu tu kejap lagi dia tengok lagu tu cambest dia pun sibuk nak nyanyi jugak. So lagu sama dua kali nyanyi. Heh heh, tapi tak boleh kalah i nyanyi lagu Bad Romance 8 kali la kot waktu first time lagu tu keluar kat RedBox. Lagi, bakal rindu 4 jam karoke berdua so nyanyi sampai lupa diri. (-.-")

Hokey, hang out dengan Hakim as kawan sangatlah amat boring sebab dia pendiam with extra pemalu bila dengan kawan perempuan. Tapi hang out dengan dia as a soulmate sangatlah havoc and kecah kadang-kadang akan jadi tak best sebab bila dua-dua dah penat kami mudah ngantuk and bila dah ngantuk mood jadi sangat swing tak best. So masa dating kena dapat tidur yang cukup sehari sebelum and tak boleh buat benda berat-berat. Heeee. Gila ah!


Perenggan specially untuk Hakim. :)

I never thought that i'll would find someone like you. u're sweet, adorable, patient, and know how to handle me. even we only know each other for a year and few days, i never regret to know you. we share things - things that i hardly tells anyone else. sometimes, you just completes me -like you're another half of me. sometimes, i'm hoping to be with you forever but we never knew what will happen in the future. we just dont know and what is left for us is just praying and hoping that we can be us in the future. what i mean by us is time is US in the family term u'll be the dad and i will be the mom and we gonna have baby bears! take note, bears - teddy bears what i really mean not the real babies. Heeee. (baby keluar dari 'situ' - okay cant imagine macam mana kepala baby akan ada kat situ and kena keluarkan dia. mesti sakit gila!) My god, ingat lagi time my cousin baru lahir baby then dia cakap pasal benda ni and i tengok at the baby punya size and try imagine macam mana it will happen to me and u bantai gelak-gelak bagai ingat i buat lawak untuk masuk competition raja lawak. Cisss! So yeah, i can be me when i am with you. And thank god juga u're not sucks like my ex. heeee. ok dah, nanti i sambung dalam telefon lah. malas nak type.


*Siape nak set timer kat cam bila dua-dua sibuk nakambik gamba kat tempat cantik. then bila nampak i pose peace dia pun peace juga. heeee.




*lepas ni siape nak layan i pegi pokok besar nak ambik gambar sama. then i boleh cakap i love u waktu tengah amik gamba gitu? (T.T)



*lepas ni siape nak tolak muka i pegi tepi bila dia rasa dia hensem then nak cam whore sorang-sorang?


So yeah, boyfriend akan balik esok pagi dan i memang akan totally lost mula esok. Tak ada soulmate untuk ajak main tengok movie and pegi karoke. Mesti sebal gila. ;-(

Cerita berhutang

Selamat pagi tengah hari blog dan pembaca gelap. Heh heh.

Eh, kadang-kadang macam seronok bila blog dah jadi private sebab peluang untuk lepas marah tanpa jaga hati siapa-siapa jadi lebih mudah. So yeah, mari kongsi satu cerita saya yang serious bikin saya panas macam nak pegi bakar kereta orang terus.

Bila baik dengan orang yang terlampau baik, orang itu dalam susah takkan nak boo layan or tengok je kan. Lagi-lagi bab duit yang macam kesian je tengok orang kebil-kebil cerita tak cukup duit or what so ever. So dengan hati terbuka, diri sendiri pun tahan diri dari enjoy, kasi duit lebih-lebih kat dia biar dia rasa kurang susah.

Tapi bila dah lepas bulan-bulan kita pula yang kena boo layan lepas itu tengok orang itu gembira sana gembira sini macam duit banyak gila, jadi dengan tebal muka dan jari pegi text kawan lama itu cakap kalau boleh bayar la balik duit - even time tu sendiri tak adalah sengkek mana, cuma nak ingatkan aje biar mati nanti mayat i tak berkira sangat la kan.

So yeah, the next lepas i send message itu dia call. Bagitahu kereta accident then nak bayar repair segala. So, it fine - cerita satu dah mula. And malamnya suddenly ternampak kekasih dia post dekat fesbuk cakap terima kasih for the date, the bunga and it was like what the eff la pulakkan. Bukan cemburu tapi hello, cerita busuk dengar dari mulut dia cakap tak ada duit cerita dari kekasih cakap baru lepas spent duit. Ohh. Cerita-cerita.

Dan seterusnya, dia lupa dia masih berhutang. Dan sekarang genap sebulan setengah. Kalaulah awak mati esok, ok saya malas nak fikir..

Saya tak berkira sangat. Tapi try imagine kalau hari-hari awak nampak dia bergembira makan sana makan sini shisha sana shisha sini tengok bola nak tempat grand saja. Kira money flow dia ya Allah gila banyak. But bila tak ada duit pandai pula nak hegeh hegeh minta tolong orang. And hutang tak bayar. Ini pun cuma saya berkira satu dua hutang, kalau kira semua and boleh timbang. Ok lagi malas nak cakap.

Jadi kalau korang nampak orang yang macam kaya. Pakai spec mahal jam mahal lepak kat tempat mahal belajar kat private U. Tak payah nak bangga happy sangat. Sebab belum tentu dia tak pinjam duit orang. Kira macam the ugly truth la kan, kalau saya pegi bagitahu orang life betul dia sure orang tak nak percaya.

Ok lantak. I dah cukup mengumpat hari ini. Berhenti.



Ok, last, biasanya orang akan lupa pasal hutang. Tapi bila ingatkan dia tahu nak bersalah and bayar. Tapi bila i jumpa orang macam gini. Ter-speechless pula. Dah ingatkan pun tak jalan. Pffftttt.


For real now, ok dah.


Btw, kekasih kesayangan saya dah nak balik kejap lagi. Sedih betul. Eh, entry untuk dia kena submit lain entry. Nanti panjang sangat pula.

Selamat tengah hari. :D

27 April 2010

I'm back again


Oh damn great. Few days left before he get back to his hometown which i am well aware possibilities on dating everyday is null. And it is hard for me to say goodbye. And again, my blog is on private! *Shocking yaw*

I had enough sharing. So yeah, only limited person can reach me now - the person who i can call friends. So hello i know you readers! :D

Probably, my blog will talk about love too. As boyfriend will be far and cannot be romantic jiwang live - so blog will be one of the medium. So if you hate to read or loathe with the entry - mind you click the close button sure you know where to find it.

My nuffnang account soon will be deleted. And maybe i'll put some music here. Edit a lil bit as i am bored with current layout. Maybe maybe. I usually plan but i just dont know why with my moods nowadays - it is sucks!

Current life is relax compared to hectic weeks during finals. But i just dont know what to do after boyfriend get back to his place. I mean, i had no one to hang out. I have few friends and siblings. But, BF is different - he knows what is the best for me and we know how to rocks our date. Pfffttttt. Kalau ikut hati macam nak minta kawin esok tolonglah kadang-kadang rasa diri sendiri gatal nak mati. ;-p

Seriously, i miss to share with my blog. Hello blog, i am back. :)

20 April 2010

Looklet

Hello new addiction. Pffftttt... damn, if before korang pening-pening teringin nak baju gila banyak then jalan-jalan pakai baju wow or maybe berangan nak jadi runaway models. So yeah, ada solution yang boleh buat korang puas hati. Damn it! I am so addicted to Looklet. Macam tiap masa before nak keluar pun nak buat satu patung-patung hoping I ada wardrobe macam gitu so that boleh pakai baju gila agung cantik. Then orang yang main Looklet ini juga boleh love tiap pakaian yang you guys pakai. So kena mix and match dengan baik so nampak gila unik. But i tak expect untuk di-like ke apa, seriously i memang puas hati bila dapat pakaikan patung-patung baju yang gila daring. So yeah, pegi try main to those yang gila fashion sure korang pun nak addicted juga.

Tapi-tapi, i gila noob sampai tak tahu macam mana nak add orang. Sebab baru main pun kot. Terima kasih Tuhan sebab kasi I jumpa benda ini lepas semua settle. Hahaha. Berjam kot i ngadap laptop pilih baju. Hahaha. Puas hati sungguh.

So yeah, mari tengok model-model saya. Kalaulah boleh sumbat muka sendiri dalam gambar tu. Sure i jadi lebih gembira. Bahahahahaha.



1. I teringin pergi zoo bersama kekasih pakai baju kaler kegemaran dia sambil bawa belon yang dihadiahkan dia untuk saya. Tak lupa juga, dah siapkan makanan picnik sambil masuk dalam bakul. Alah, kesayangan betul. Tapi seriously ini cita-cita sebab kekasih gila tak sporting sebab tak sudi pergi zoo. BOOOO!


2. If dalam cerita alice in wonderland i macam pelik-pelik tengok puteri putih, so now i buat my own version of puteri putih. Tapi, sebab nak gambar nampak dramatik, nahh jadi kaler kuning less putih pula. Macam snow princess pun ada. I memang suka yang ni!


3. Ini special case. Mula-mula dress tu nak bawa pegi beach, tapi end up with jumpa satu baju jaring-jaring jadi seronok pula. Hello runaway model version diana. Haha. Seronok bah! Mungkin boleh bawa pegi dinner baju ni.


4. Ini patung-patung pertama i buat. Haha. Suka betul baju dia! Tapi nak pakai pegi mana-mana with this memang jangan harap. Btw, ini model kegemaran i.


So ada perasaan macam nak gedik-gedik try main tak? If teringin nak main, here's the link;

And sila-silalah add i jadi rakan seperjuangan dan follow. Heh heh heh. Maca orang hegeh sangat nak tengok patung i. But yeah, i tetap nak tengok patung-patung sendiri feymes. Tak boleh?


Ok fine, nak kejut beruang bangun. Bye!

19 April 2010

5 hari lagi. Eh!

Helo helo and helo.

Since habis paper i though dapat spend more time blogging, tapi end up with i tidur macam beruang kutub lepas print thesis siap-siap lepas itu hantar jilid. Ingatkan bila dah siap thesis nak print segala itu senang, rupanya ya Allah, gila menguji kesabaran. Margin hilang pegi mana time masuk computer tempat print, kena betulkan balik. Habis separuh hari kat tempat print. Nasihat untuk adik semester kecik-kecik, sila terus beli printer printjet so tayah nak beratur panjang pegi print. Tak pun pegi guna printer kat office ayah. Haha gila lagi senang and for free tak payah beratur and tak payah bayar. ;-p

So yeah, i am done with my degree. But havent start yet process cari kerja. And not thinking nak kerja lagi. Macam nak cuti bulan-bulan hepi-hepi kat rumah berusaha gigih gemukkan badan. Tak pun, eyeing on jejaka kacak stock ada future and boleh buat husband terus kawin lepas dia masuk meminang jadi suri rumah sepenuh masa, so tak payah susah-susah hantar resume pegi interview segala. Kejap lagi mesti abah baling tukul dekat kepala sebab susah-susah dia hantar masuk U kejap lagi i duduk dapur jaga anak je. Bila orang tanya apa tu civil engineering pun dah lupa apa, eh kerja untuk orang-orang awam tu ke?

Lepas itu, cerita pasal kawan sama kelas pula. I memang tak ada really-really-close-bestfriend yang i cerita like everything kat satu orang ni saja. Tapi i taley deny i kalau boleh nak rapat dengan everyone but i tahu i sometimes i ada buat everyone macam kecik hati dengan i. Means, i memang gila tak perfect sebab i gila moody dan aneh dan sukar dibaca dan complicated. Even i sendiri pun rasa menyampah dengan diri sendiri and sampai kadang-kadang macam nak cakap, 'apesal kau ni perangai macam sial diana?'. Pffttt.

Ok, start dari case yang sumpah i tak boleh lupa. Time first waktu orentasi. Orang yang first jadi kawan adalah Yati and Min and Anis and Hot. But yang i rasa i keep maintain mestilah dengan yatyat and minmin. But dengan anis and hot pun sayang juga tapi jarang hang out so macam tak close sangat tapi boleh peluk-peluk cakap rindu. Yat and min yang selalu jadi penasihat and pendengar luahan hati i, tysm. Korang memang da boom. Yat especially, thanks! I boleh imagine expression u each time u fikir what-to-do-next. Heeee. And for sure akan rindu you kawan swimming! :D

Then my classmate-to. Especially eacha and yanti. As korang yang yana rapat since first kelas start. Heh heh. Korang memang cukup hot and cukup otai untuk control kelas. Lagi-lagi eacha sebab dia sangatlah amat garang. Heeee. Korang macam lesbian yana yang selalu minta kena jilat. Then then then miza dengan aisyu pun sekarang dah semakin menjadi kegemaran sebab bebadan hot juga sampai yana rasa yana ini aneroxia macam Taylor Swift. Nak macam TS jugakkan, sungguh memilih. Seriously kena ada hari gadis so kita boleh main hempap-hempap version siapa paling berat duduk bawah - sure yana dekat atas sekali sebab even yanti pun dha lagi buncit dari yana. HAHAHAHA. Weeiiii, bila free time wehh!

Ini adalah untuk rakan lelaki terbaik sepanjang tahun di UTM. So yang memang i ingat dalam kepala adalah adi. Even ada satu sem yana macam act emotionally, tapi seriously yana regret jadi gitu. Jijot sangat memahami and sifat ke-abang-an melampau. Jadi macam seronok kalau dapat mengadu pelik-pelik kat adi and tengok muka serious abang kasi nasihat kat adik. Haha. Next is alif yang juga merupakan scandal kesayangan heh heh even u dah ada gf cantik pun u tak totally lupa i. heee. Case dengan alif i taley lupa adalah time pegi kl i jumpa kat ou and drama-drama-drama. dah la time tu i gemuk lepas tu i nangis sampai mata kembang - gila hodoh macam ikan kembung. Then kita balik jb sama - sume benda pun nak cerita. Tapi sekarang u main hot and makin busy so i pun dah malas nak layan u. Hahaha. Last adalah amir gonjeng. Pergh. Nak tulis nama dia pun rasa malas sebab baru kejap tadi kena celaka dengan dia. Oh kau sejak dah tunang lupa diri, tak boleh blahhh aaaa! But seriously dia memang kawan otai and kawan sengal sampai kehidupan jadi sangat saiko time tu. Kenangan tak boleh lupa mestilah time tengok movie dengan kau. Special sound effect sehh. If amir kawin tak jemput memang yana bakar pelamin. So tiga orang yang akan diingati lepas ni. Korang tayah nak bangga sangat. ;-p

Ok cerita pasal roomate. To be honest, i bukan roomate yang baik sebab i memang jenis ignorance sikit. Dah la suka keluar bilik tak balik balik. Balik rumah tiap minggu. Tempat gila bersepah macam tongkang pecah. So i tak expect untuk disayangi roomate. Heeee. But then the one yang i rasa i tak boleh lupa mestilah ana! Heeee. Even awal-awal memang tak baik dengan ana sangat, tapi lama-lama baru semua benda pun nak cerita. Heee. Sampai sekarang even lain kelas pun rasa macam nak duduk dengan ana merepek pelik-pelik macam waktu study week. Dah la ana semakin kurus dah hot - ish kalau macam gini yana sorang je lah yang tinggal tak hot. So yeah, award roomate, ana menang. Tapi tetap roomate lain pun tetap sayang. Heee. Mimi tengah baca water quality and dia menang roomate paling pandai. Fatin jadi roomate paling hebat jepun & gila sayang kat laptop. While anis, roomate paling selamba and kuat ketawa and akan jadi sangat stress bila time final. Hahaha. ;-p

Seriously, boleh ke jumpa korang lagi? If cakap pasal benda ni mesti rasa sebal tak pasal-pasal. Macam time convo tak dapat jumpa pula. Tapi siapa yang nak kejut bangun pagi pergi kelas. Siapa nak main mengumpat-mengumpat padahal dalam hati gila sayang kat kawan. Siapa nak ketawa lupa diri bila kalah main kad. Siapa nak merepek sambil makan domino's piza sama-sama. Siapa nak tayang huruf 'L' kat kepala bila kalah main kad. Siapa nak ajak jalan pegi M sama-sama. Ok tak ada lagi lepas ni, even kalau sambung master pun, feel tu takde. Erghhh!

And sekarang i dah fikir, siapa yang akan pergi kawin dulu. Hahaha. And if siapa kawin dulu silalah sila bagitau kat facebook. And buat reunion nanti semua kena bawak satu anak then kita main kawin-kawinkan dorang. Heee. Cari calon untuk anak dengan orang yang dikenali itu seronok. ;-p

Ok dah, merepek panjang sangat malam ni. So masih ada 5 hari i akan ada kat utm, i nak spend semua time untuk kawan kawan dan kawan. If nak hang out sila contact. ;-p

17 April 2010

TQ

While waiting for the facebook to upload the photo, yes i have some time to update my blog. Heeee. I am done with my degree, i guess so. Just need to submit my thesis on Monday, hopefully i managed to submit it on time.

Just now, i'm going out with my classmates for dinner. And this is the second time the chinese and malay gathered together. As i miss the first gathering, i dont want to miss this event. And thank God i'm going, there's no regret and i really enjoyed the night! Not because of the foods, but because of the crowd, because of them! Heeee. Is there any next time? (-.-")

I thought i will hundred percently happy with the end of my final year, but i am not. I just not sure where we'll be going after this. Will i find someone else like them? The community? Friends who always called themselves mok. Friends who really do care but they dont really show it. Friends who always be my side. I am gonna miss you, everyone of you.



Haih. Later.

15 April 2010

Update

Something wrong with my facebook, i cant log in. haiya. i know you dont want me to play SL during the critical hours but seriously i need to catch ups with my friends, manalah tahu ada hints ke. Nak reply comment ke. Aish. So yeah, no facebook for tonight. Pffftttt..

I already bought livita, redbull and need nescafe for tonight. Last kopek babeh! For the last time oyeah yeah. So after paper tomorrow i can sleep like a polar bear. And have fun with classmates during the night. Oh-la-la. Must keep perut empty for the whole day so that i can eat like crazy during the night. Wehe. And on Saturday wanna go to Popular buy something to read or maybe borrow something from the library or friends so that can jimat money and bought new heels by the end of the month. Heh heh. And maybe new pair of jeans, who knows. Must saving!

Ok, need to continue my revision. Till next time. Probably i wont left my blog alone after this. And next week is Tiger Blog Fest! Oh i am so excited to write about tiger. Weee~


For real now, BYE!

It's 15

Today is 15th and i never thought that i'll ever have such a bad start of 15th. It is just 9.30am and i always have the bad feelings - seriously, what happen to me? It seems like i acted like i was eighteen years old - immaturely handling the way i feel. Thanks Allah i still managed to think wisely.
*Sure some of you started to curious aite? Haha. ;-p

I hate exam weeks, i hate to live in pressure - can i just make this stop like now? Not again, i'm not going to complain that i am stress, no-no-i'm cool with it. I live under pressure, the finals effect nothing to me. And i know it will be end VERY SOON.




p.s: I love you, but why everything seems so tough right now? It seems so wrong.



Happy anniversary.
You are like roses to me, the flowers cheers me up but sometimes, the thorns hurts me.

14 April 2010

HOI HOI


Yesterday was sucks, I am damn sleepy and I need to finish my revision. Ergh, as Dr Khalida said Dr Johan’s questions is super susah, so the mood to read his part has gone nowhere at that moment, I’m giving up. So yeah, while listen to Lady Gaga remix version, so hello cam whoring. Eh eh, my bulu-bulu ixus dah charge lah!

3 down, 1 more to go babeh! And obviously my ‘sayang’ Dr Johan already gave us the tips but still, his question will be unexpectedly susah. Why lah lecture, why must give us tough paper while you know we want to graduate with flying colours? Seriously, the mood to study turned off once I browse through the notes. What exactly I’m doing in the SWM class for the whole semester? No highlighted words, no extra notes, nothing – the notes is super clean like I never bring it to the class. (-.-“) Need to study tomorrow, must.

Just now I had funnn with sayang Yatie. Heee. We swim like children, get to know new people. Eh apesal we being too friendly just because of nak belajar renang anjing laut tu? Ok babe, there is next time. Each time if you datang JB after this, let me know then we’ll say hello to Mayland. Love you love you! Obviously I’m not going to upload our pictures because we’re ‘hot’. ;-p ;-p

And lastly, I miss my little monster. Monster yang sombong si Gaga kesayangan. (^.^)


I can’t wait for Monday. I am tired of being stress. Guess what, for the first time ever, I’m being TOO EMOTIONAL which I cried for stupid things. Heh. I wish miss heartless feelingless numb hearted me will be back soon. Being emotional is just a waste of time – tolonglah jangan emosi dengan workloads. Ishh!


p.s: Can I skip on the 15th of every month? Ergh!

13 April 2010

Mana facebook?

I delete Facebook bukan sebab merajuk dengan boyfriend atau bergaduh dengan rakan facebook ataupun bukan sebab kena stalk dengan freak. Bukan-bukan bukan. Saya delete facebook sebab saya sangat addicted dengan sorority life sampai saya tak ada time nak belajar. Tiap minit dan jam pun sibuk nak check energy dah full ke tak, cari sisters baru biar house membesar. Sampai rule konon-konon tak nak ada strangers dalam account pun dah ke mana, semua sebab sorority life. Tapi seronok betul main benda itu, macam rasa disayangi sister pula. ;-p

Ok, jadi sepanjang minggu ini atau mungkin sampai hari Jumaat malam, saya activate balik kesayangan facebook saya okey. Sebab dah tak ada facebook, saya boleh focus nak tengok notes sikit. Betul betul, i dah jadi facebook addict. Tiap masa pun nak check facebook - pathetic tahu tak.

So, have fun rakan taulan! Hey, why not korang buat twitter account. Seronok juga u know, dapat tengok Justin Bieber punya tweet, then nak makan pun rasa seronok tweet. Bila tweets dah sampai ribu pun rasa gembira. Tengok artis buat apa. Seronok! Jom lah buat twitter, jom lah! ;-p



p.s: Saya rindu little monster saya. Awak buat apa? (^.^)

11 April 2010

Hey life.

A week left starting from tomorrow. It's gonna be hectic which i have paper on Monday, Wednesday and Friday - not sure either i had enough time to study. Thesis need to be submited to the faculty on 19th April - again, did i have enough time? Grrrrr. Life is hectic but still i can't get myself to do the right thing. I want more time.


Current life - HECTIC!

07 April 2010

Sorority Life.


I need more sisters in my Sorority Life house, so anyone who might be active with SL thingy, please-please-please add me with personal message SL. So that we can be sisters! I am rookie and i need presents and lots of sisters. My cloth is so sikit even i got lots of money. If and only if the money can be transferred to poker chips zynga. Heh heh heh.


Am i too late to play this thing? (-.-")

Stress.

Think Diana, think. I got nothing in my mind right now. Seems like i'm having a nightmare or something - maybe worst. Not to mention that there are still assignments need to be done and i got paper on friday, so at least i need to be wise now. Don't do something stupid. Don't do something stupid. Don't do something stupid. Yeah, just don't Diana, even how hard it is.


I'm thinking of deactivating my facebook account again, i'm thinking of make my blog in private but what is the point? I've got no solid reason why, but still my heart insist too. And my mind start to say "i am okay with it". It is the matter of time, we'll see.

I am stress. I really do am. I wish the stress will go away each time i said, i am stress - i said that like a zillion times. I am stress. Yeah, this entry is about stress. Haha. No, not really. I dont know what is the point of this entry.

I am craving for ayam penyet since last two weeks, i excitedly said i want to eat steamboat at rawa restaurant or whatever it is called since the semester starts, i still haven't got myself secret recipe chocolate fudge cake, i still haven't go to the sea - camwhoring, did anyone ever listen to me what exactly i want now? Been too busy and too selfish to listen or pay attention.


Sometimes, when i get mad with something/anyone, i will make it/them felt the same way as i do. I am the one with grudge, and seriously i can't handle my own actions. It acts as what my heart feel. So don't blame me if sometimes i over-acted, it is the way how i let go my exact feeling. Eg; i bites when i love something, i pinch when i my heart say stop it jerks, i throw things when i really mad ect. I am complicated, i can't deny that.

But, life is complicated. You plan the future but something might comes up until it change the plans. We never expect what would happen in the future - it is complicated. The best way is to focus on the current life. I am thinking, what is my current life now? A last semester student with loads of thing to study and still got assignments need to be submit this week. Oh, so i need to study and stop thinking about what would i be after 20th April? (20th April is the last day i'll be at utm as a student - thank Allah!) But. But. Ok stop this, i can't think anything more about this. Derrr. Life is complicated.


I've once heard one of my friend said, "You know how they say that you can’t live without love? Well oxygen is even more important." Haha. I can't stop thinking about this quotes, it seems like it is a best quotes for the heart broken people, i mean what is the real meaning of love for now? Not even getting married yet, just a simple we're declared a couple officially, you-are-mine-i-am-yours-thingy and the relationship might be end any time once one of the 'couple' getting bored or getting tired of one another. And lots of people cried for love and some even commit suicide because of love. Maybe it is the solution for those who think, i cant live without love. Love is isn't love when someone is hurting. Love is balance. Love is as complicated as life.

I don't want to talk about friendship. But what i can conclude - it is hard to make all your friends satisfied on what you're doing. It goes bad at certain time and gets better at any other time then you realised it is better for you to just keep it by yourself and not too depend on friends. But still, how would i be without friends? And still, friendship is also complicated as life and love.


When everything is so complicated and even me is a total complicated person which always act abnormal, so what is easy in this whole world?



Think positively, at least i have a life with enough foods, have a place to stay, got educated by parents (even sometimes the workloads does killing me), got monthly allowance without working, i have nari-nari, i have a great sister and brother, i have supporting parents - ok, i'll just shut my mouth now. Enough complaining.



Boy, you're a monster.

05 April 2010

Hello updates!

I am done with my FYP presentation. *evil laugh* It is not as bad as i imagine, i mean, the lecturers don't bite and they don't ask me what is your bra colour today. HAHA. It goes well - i guess. And I proudly said, it might be the best and less nervous presentation that i ever present in my whole life as a 22 years old girl. Even at first i did forget to bring my pendrive which i called it a really really really stupid mistake during the presentation day. I rush back to the block and there my super cute toyol pendrive lying on the table. Durh!


So today, i planned to sleep until i satisfied. As i don't really sleep last night, i still memorize my script even in my sleep - it is a nightmare seriously! And i want to read Undomestic Godness novel until half of the book, even i know i should start my revision but yeah i need a break for at least a day. And go out for ehem-ehem-ehem with ehem-ehem-ehem, that is the most thing that i cant wait even doing my script i always said, "after the presentation it will be a good day so now you need work for it." Yea-yeah. Few hours to go!


Must do this week:
#1 Help boyfriend with his fyp. Discussions aite?
#2 Edit back my thesis and print the very final draft to be sent to the supervisor. - Must do this week i dont hv enuf time next week siot!
#3 Revisions. Ergh. 4 papers for the final with 1 day gap for each paper, how cool is that? Seriously i need more time like 48 hours per day? (Like every week pun i keep mentioned the same thing HAHA)
#4 OMG, now i remember about the construction management assignment. So yeah, assignment that need to be submit on 12th april, great -really great! (sucks actually)
#5 Hey group environmental management, when to compile our things eh? So, meeting for EM subject.



Wish me luck for this few weeks left. Give me the luck, the strength, the patient ahh everything that i really need now. Goodbye for now!

03 April 2010

Hey boyfriend

Like I said, Tumblr is cool. I found this thing, and it caught me.
So boyfriend, this is for you. :)

02 April 2010

How to train ur dragon

Lets make this quick, i want to sleep.

So tadi, keluar dengan so-called-kekasih setelah berminggu-minggu tidak berfoya-foya sebab terlalu sibuk dengan kerja sekolah. Jadi, kami bercita-cita untuk menonton wayang dimana menjadi suatu masalah besar bila kena pilih na tengok cerita apa. Setelah berpenat lelah berjalan melihat poster "Showing Now", kami ber-decided untuk menonton How to Train Your Dragon. Oh yeah, itu cerita kartun tetapi jangan under estimate terlalu awal. Ia sangat seronok - mungkin lebih seronok kalau nak dibandingkan dengan cerita Alice in Wonderland (maaf peminat cerita Alice).

To those yang ada bela pet macam sugar glider, kucing, rabbit ect sure time korang tengok cerita ini korang hoping haiwan peliharaan korang akan jadi comel macam Toothless juga. Dia sangatlah amat amat amat comel, perwatakan haiwan comel. Alah, rindu dekat kucing peliharaan. Jalan cerita, tidak boring dan tidak slow dimana you'll enjoy every second of the movie and it is worth every penny!

So yeah, even ramai orang beratur untuk tengok crash of the titans i tak rasa rugi pun tengok kartun. So sila pergi tengok if korang rasa tense belajar banyak and need something to watch.


Hoo. Ok done! Nights uolss!




p.s: Nap now, and need to wake up at 3am. Heh, is it possible?

01 April 2010

Awards and Tag

Hello, I think I can breathe now. Done with synopsis, just a little bit edit for presentation slide, revisions - let put it aside for a while. I just need time to stop think educationally, I mean lets be a dummy or miss bimbo for a while - not serious type of person. I am fatigue right now, few days of sleepless night. No wonder when I read Nadiah Amalina & Fateen Nadiah blog last year, they seems like too stress with everything. I can’t deny that, TOO STRESS. ;-(

Sometimes, I am bored with my own blog because I always complain about my things and being too emotional because too stress. But yeah, I don’t really have a life since the last few weeks. Jealous of Carl because he always got the time to join cool event with JOHO, eve I am truly Johorian, I only join their activity once. Bahahaha!

So last few weeks, I got an award from Miss Uthe. Lets start from that award first. :)

Award from Miss Uthe – Beautiful Blogger Award.
Rules:
1st Thank the person who gives you the award and link her
2nd Pass this award to 15 bloggers that you recently discovered and think they are bombastic
3rd Hello them and tell them that they received the award
4th State 7 things about yourself

Firstly,
Thanks Miss Uthe for the award. Even I know I am not ‘that’ beautiful blogger. But think positively, everyone is beautiful uols!

Secondly,
Need to choose another 15 bloggers, this is tough!
Dya // Ifar // Yatie // Irena // Nada Liyana // Fateen Dayana // Maria // Aryana // Farra // Mastura // Dill // Nelly // Najah // Qila // Aryanti
So babes, you’re beautiful in my eyes! ♥

Thirdly,
Will do after this. Maybe.
Fourthly,
The 7 things about me.
#1 I am tall. Sometimes, I wish I am at least few inches shorter but not too short.
#2 Skinny is my another something I don’t really like about myself. My weight is only 43.5kg.
#3 I have a straight hair. Even I tried Hanis Zalikha tips on how to have a wavy curls hair, its end up with a disaster!
#4 I have an eyebags now. Something I don’t really like, susah nak make up macam Gaga nanti.
#5 I love heels. Like so damn much.
#6 I am lazy and sleep is my hobby. Sometimes I wish I am the 2010 versions of Sleeping Beauty. Haha.
#7 Aloof. I rarely talk to someone I don’t really know. And I don’t do the bitch-type-of-gossiping.

So, this is the award. Thanks again Miss Uthe!




Next!


Tag dari Miss Uthe.

1. Siapakah anda di rumah?
Kakak sulung yang kurang matang. Anak yang paling suka membazir dan suka minta wang saku lebih – kadang-kadang malu dengan sikap sendiri.

2. Siapakah diri anda disamping rakan?
Tanya mereka. Tapi mungkin saya sombong sekarang. Haha.

3. 5 benda yang anda idamkan tapi belum tercapai?
• Kamera DSLR, Canon EOS D500
• Rambut berparas lepas tali bra serta lebat
• Untuk pergi konsert Lady Gaga, Justin Timberlake, Justin Bieber ect
• Blackberry – tapi kalau kena pilih EOS & BB, I pilih EOS!
• Kereta persendirian untuk adik.
4. Siapakah nama pasangan anda?
Hakim Kamal a.k.a Little Monster


5. Ceritakan 5 perkara yang anda paling suka tentang pasangan anda.
- Senang pergi – (easy going)
- Pendengar terbaik dikala mulut kena berceloteh macam kereta api dalam mood marah dan tension
- Penyabar terbaik tatkala hormone saya tengah berterabur
- Pembaris. TET!
- Pengikut serta salinan kucing (copycat) perangai Diana yang Berjaya. Anak murid yang baik!


6. Bila tarikh anda couple?
15th May

7. Apakah kenangan pahit anda bersama pasangan anda?
Bila dia main Dota berterusan 4 jam tanpa mempedulikan bunyi handphone. Macam nak pergi kolej dia dan bakar laptop.

8. Lagu tema cinta anda?
Soko – You can take my heart

9. Apa perubahan yang ingin anda lihat dari pasangan anda?
Berhidup secara manusia. Bangun pagi dan tidur pada waktu malam. Normal.

10. Tag rakan anda yang lain.
Haha. Ok, tag diri sendiri. Tetapi macam seronok untuk tahu jawapan Carl dan Petisuara. So kamu berdua kena tag!



Done! And the last one.



Award from Carl Samsudin - Anugerah Terhormat Top Blogger 2010
Rules:
1st Thanks and link to the person that give you the award
2nd Post this award onto 12’s bloggers you have recently discovered and think are fantastic
3rd Contact and let them know they’ve won the award


First.
Alif, thanks for the award! Compared to your blog, mine is like a junk blog. But then, thanks again ex-scandalicious-friend! Heh heh. This is his link – Carl Samsudin

Second.
So the lucky 12 are;
Barthugs // Endang Harnani // Nelly // Amir // Chuck // Prinzcesz Shasheera // Zack Zukhairi // Dya // Yatie // Perez Hilton // Irena // Izdiyani

Third.
I’ll contact through the chatbox of Facebook. :D


Another award received. Yea!





Done!

Thanks uols! Btw, is this the longest entry that I ever post?


Bye for now.

Hey love

Hey bloggers. I am too busy right now to update something but I always do update my Twitter account and Tumblr. So if you have twitter, do follow me same goes to Tumblr. You see, Tumblr is easier than blogger because, I can reblog even I got nothing in mind at least I do blog. Heee.


So yeah, again, my Tumblr - http://love-me-not.tumblr.com
And my twitter account - http://twitter.com/dianaubi


Loads of love!


Still busy with my FYP, I don't even start my revision yet. I don't have any study week, it should have been call as FYP week. Haih. Please, don't mess up Diana.