30 December 2008



Told you!!! Most of my classmates called me tembam and now I am all invited to MOK’S GROUP. Haha. The group yang call each other mok. Hihi. I miss my friends damn much okeh. Our first day was blast. Chaos!

Our first lecture dah start. Steel design dowh, my ‘favourite’ part of civil engineering. Heh. But our lecturer macam sangat gila strict pulakkan. 5 person yang absent just now dia g call and ask why they are not coming. So I had no chance to skip his morning classes la kan. Bodoh gila dah plan nak ponteng class. ;p

Then institusi islam pulak only 11 students in our section. Haaa. And all of them pun mmg classmate kiteorang yang gila sekepala. Jijot,ciki,mok,mail,eacha,yanti,anis,fatin,lin,miza&me. Hah. Siap hafal lagi dowh, nak full name pun tawu. Our class ends like at 2.30 and the MOK’s ajak g karaoke. Well, did having fun with them even some of them just breaking up and being too emotional by choosing sad songs. Haha. Gila emo!!

Hah. Look. I still can have a life. Wonderful colour-colour life!



I should going back to UTM tonight, but something comes out.

Ok. I did teman my mom pegi bomoh just now. If you still remember ada satu time tu before final my mom did sakit. Well, till now pun she still suffering. Kiteorang daripada pegi klinik then g hospital kerajaan then private hospital pulak. But then my mom still sakit-sakit. And getting worst now. Lagi-lagi bila time maghrib and tengah malam. So last solution kiteorang is pegi jumpa this bomoh yang my aunty did recomemded la kan.

To be honest la kan, memang at first langsung tak percaya tau dengan this stuff but after seeing it by myself just now mmg gerun la beb. Not my mom la kan, but a patient before my mom did jerit-jerit dengan voices yang menakutkan. Sampai rasa panas semacam that place. Scary tak?

When it comes to my mom’s turn mmg kesian la tengok my mom. I know she did suffering, time pegang tangan mak tu mmg sejuk sangat. Suprisingly, someone did that to my mom. Ada hantu raya belaan kat my mom now. Macam tak percaya je. ‘Bomoh’ tu siap describe lagi siapa yang bagi binatang tu kat mak. Pergh… macam nak pegi kat tempat kerja mak and slap that bitch like thousands times je! Did she ever think if someone did that to her mom pulak?

Hurm. I need to go there again tomorrow. I just hope apa-apa yang ada kat dalam badan mak tu akan keluar cepat. My mom dah suffering sakit gitu for months. Tak sanggup nak tengok lagi. So, I’ll be home tomorrow night. :)


I can’t wait for my class tomorrow. Well, over-excited to meet my classmates!!

Yeah, I want to sit next to Jijot and tell him about everything during my holiday. Digging some of his secret especially bout his ‘love’ story. And I want to go to Kedah! So need to ask him bout that.

I want to stay with Eacha and Yanti. Collect some new gossip among the girls. Well, I miss to hug them!!!

Luby? He is not in my mind. But I really want to know what happening between him and Illy gebam. Woho.. si lelaki buaya darat yang unik. ;p

Hahaha. Well, nak duduk ngan siapa esok eh? Steel design dowh at 8 a.m. Its killing me!

I can’t wait to meet ABG’s too!!!!
Please… I’m craving for the jokes and stories and eating ayam penyet and girls night. Owh. I really miss them!!!

Hopefully, all this mental disorder will go away once I have my life back. Life full of friends and family and the assignments and the books to read. At least I’m not wasting my time thinking bout the stupid feelings.

29 December 2008


I tot I was okay having you pusing-pusing in my small little life but seriously I am not. I hate to have you bugging my konon-konon ‘perfect’ life ni. You are way to hypocrite for me to stand still and be patient. I am really irritated to have you in my life.

So I’ve deleted you from my life.
Is that okay with you?

28 December 2008


1. My eye got infected. Well, it is my fault, using the same lens since .. when eh? Haha. I can’t open my right eye properly. Sobs.

2. I started to use facebook back. Haha.

3. I’m gaining weight now. First words from Lin once she saw me is, “Badan yana dah naik eh?” and I was like, WOAH!

4. Going back to UTM tomorrow night. Sobs.

5. Reading e-book, Stephenie Meyer collection. But since having this eye problem, I’ll let my eyes rest for a while.

6. Won’t using lens for a while. My dad did complain bout my bad habit.

7. I can’t wait to meet ABG and my classmates!!

8. I will celebrate New Year with my sister. So, I’m booked. ;p

9. I want to eat Nasi Ayam Penyet!!! Craving for it since last week.

10. Disappointed with Arsenal’s performance for now. So, no mood with EPL.

11. Happy belated birthday to my dad and Nik Alif a.k.a Dady! Sorry, I can’t even open my eyes yesterday. So no entry lorh!

12. Lastly, I’m being too emotional nowadays. Sorry.

26 December 2008


My last attempt is, PLAYING DUMB.

I won’t say anything again. Lost of words and tired of repetitions. So, how about a round of applause?


You are such a good actor/actress to be.

(I have a sarcasm smile on my face right now.)

Tag from Hudds

#1 describe 10 things about the person who tagged you.
1. Friendly.
2. Kipas-susah-mati Jason Mraz. Haha.
3. Penyayang. Hihi. Kami murid-murid budi penyayang.
4. Khalif cakap Huddy ni gila. But I don’t know why.
5. Kadang-kadang entry huddy ni emo. ;p
6. Hati kental. Hahaha.
7. Kuat makan. She said so. Hahaha. Ape kes makan 100 roti tu?
8. Takut kucing.
9. A friend of mine ckp her lips sexy. Angelina Jolie beb.
10. Tak penah tinggalkan Johor. Hihi. Anak jati Johor la kot. ;p

#2 - Now u have to describe 10 things about urself.
1. Emotional. Haha. Sangat kuat beremosi. PMS kot. ;p
2. Complicated. Me myself pun kdg-kdg tak paham dgn diri sendiri.
3. Suka gila kat chocs sekarang.
4. Sangat moody bila driving. Hoho. Semua benda pun salah.
5. Clumsy! Hehe. Can't wait for the new sem. Kabut beramai-ramai.
6. I have polar bear genetic in my DNA. I need 14 hours of sleep per day. Haha. Percayalah!
7. Love outdoor sports but hate to get burn. Any solutions?
8. Cam-whore tapi sedar diri tak photogenic. Hihi.
9. Irritating. Ye ke? Yes i do when i am not in a good mood. Or when i started to hate something.
10. Kerek-kerek-kerek!

#3 - At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
Lucky 10?
1. Sis Nina - Tade mintak gamba, sila buat.
2. Jijot - Present for the newbies.
3. Alif - Haha. Buat oi!
4. Chuck - Balasan sbb u g vacation tak ajak i. ;p
5. Batax - Assignment before naik sem.
6. Dya - Hihi.. yana nak tambah keje Dya boleh?
7. Eim - Update blog la budak!!!!
8. Affan - Haha. New assignment utk u.
9. Qila - Budak yang busy ngan internship die neh. Hihi..
10. Epa - Apesal dah lame tak update blog? Rindu la!!!

25 December 2008

Owh my!

This entry is published after I’ve think about 10 minutes?


Seriously, I am not in a good mood. Yes, again.

Let me say, I did trust something. Maybe I do believe something I want to believe. Like children who believe that santa does exist but the actual thing, there is not santa.
But surprisingly, what I do believe is not true. And more surprisingly, the trust that I’ve made is broken. Well, if you did know how hard to gain a trust compared to broken it. Btw, I am not losing something expensive or something that I should treasure or what. But I do feel stupid. Maybe I’m thinking too much or what. But what the hell with this feeling?

I am sick of it. I tried so hard to get rid of it. Feeling guilty, jealous and have all those negative feelings. Better for me to be plain-shy-nerdy geek or acting like crazy-sarcastic-heartless bitch. Both different character but at least I have a path to go.

If I choose to be plain-shy-nerdy geek – whatever they said, whatever happening. I will just shut my mouth and let it the thing goes by without any statement or I won’t defense myself. And surely I’ll cut my social time so I won’t easily get contacted by those people that really makes me feel this way. Just imagine ugly Betty in me.

But if I choose to be crazy-sarcastic-heartless bitch – why bitch? If I’m being that way surely they would called me bitch. HAHA. And I will said, whatever loser! You’re not at my place. This will be a vice versa from the geek. I will defense myself with my sarcastic words. Well, i won’t take those things seriously. Let assuming me as Regina George from Mean Girls movie.

Both are a different character. But it is a way for me to defense myself. Defending from being fool again by all these feeling.

24 December 2008

10 lucky song.

Sangat bosan. So I did shuffle my malay++indonesian song juke box and will describe bout it. Okay, this entry will be a total craps so stop reading if you're not interested. :)

1. Kangen Band - Tentang aku engkau dan dia.
This song really reminds me when i was in semester 3. The love conflict and everything. Haha. Each time i played this song memang tangkap cintan ah beb. Sebab each words do mean something to me 'dulu'. Btw, i love the melody macam sangat tenang. Hehe. Is it?

2. Peterpan - Menghapus Jejakmu.
Haha. I love the vidoe clip!! To those yang tak penah tengok try la youtube. The girl sangat cute and sangat sengal sebab follow all the guy punya steps. To those yang nak move on maybe this song macam sesuai kot tak la too emotional. Sure time dengar tak nangis.

3. The Lima - Buronan Cinta.
Cute!!! Haha. Nothing else la kan nak cakap sebab this song macam common. I love this part, lebih baik ku lari cari pacar yang baru. Macam sangat senang nak tukar like tuka baju. Ni macam Jonas Brother version melayu. Or KRU junior. Heh, but i am bored with KRU song yang macam sama jenis.

4. Melly & Paundrakarna - Tergila-gila
Another ost from Bukan Bintang Biasa punya movie. Well, for newbies yang baru couple maybe feels this way la kot. Terawang-awangan. Hahaha. I can't stop thinking of Raffi Ahmad now. He is wayyyy to hot. Will watch BBB for the third round la nanti. Haha.

5. Dewa19 - Sedang Ingin Bercinta.
First time dengar lagu ni time kat Kemaman. Siblings Nazim did addicted to this song and all the way dalam kereta dengar lagu ni. So this song terus stuck in my head till now. Well, Dewa memang the best kot. Their music memang mantap++lyric yang sangat pelik. Haha. I love the girl punya suara sebab gila gedik. ;p

6. Tangga - Akhir Yang Indah.
Something i do love about Tangga is, their lyric selalu related in my life tau. So macam each time download their new single mesti for few weeks akan repeat the song. I still looking for their album kat M'sia but tak jumpa. So, if someone did find Tangga's album please let me know eh. Recomended song of diorg punya lagu now is oh teganya. Sangat cute gila ok!!!

7. Fabulous Cat - Bawaku Terbang
At last lagu Malaysia. Hihi.. Lagu ni maybe lirik dia kot yang best until i did save kat dalam my folder. Unik and meaningfull. Tapi, lagu ni sangat panjang. So each time play this song mesti at last i'll foward to the next song.

8. SO7 - Betapa.
To my classmate, sila jangan gelak. Heh. This song time study week UTM and mostly semua dengar kat radio. So while i am so addicted to this song and tak boleh download sebab tak balik rumah, i did bantai menyanyi sampai salah lirik and kawan-kawan yang study sama semua bantai gelak until now pun ada still ingat. Hampeh tol. So nak feeling bout this song pun dah takde sebab this song mcm kind of joke utk diorg. Grrr.. i miss u guys tawu tak?

9. D'Masiv - Cinta ini membunuhku.
Ini lagu putus cinta. Hahahaha. Ok, i don't want to be too emotional. But my sis did say that each time i sing this song dalam kereta my face will suddenly change like i really do mean it. Haha. Love sucks babeh and its killing me. So betul la kan if i'm making an expression if i sing this song.

10. Ajai & Tungku Mimi - Kayangan
Apesal ini lagu? Hahaha.. well, my friend suruh download this song and i still have it here. But this song tak best kot. Cerita dia pun macam tipu sebab macam tiba-tiba aje seorang raja nak fall for an ordinary girl. But the blog thigy kat itu movie makes me have a blog at the first place la dulu kan. Maybe i still unlucky sebab takde adik raja pegi baca my blog. Vocal both of them sgt tak best! Fullstop.

Overall, yes i have lots of Indonesian song compared to Malaysian song. I am not into indie band malaysia but love to seek for indonesian underground band. Reasons? Haha. Their lyric is meaningfull & tak meleleh. Huahua..

Ok, i already killed 45 minutes of my time to listening and describing the song. My sis said this is just waste of time. But better doing this than doing nothing kan. ;p

Take this & go away!

I think I made it a game to play your game and let myself cry.
I buried myself alive on the inside.
So I could shut you out, and let you go away for a long time.


Yes, you are a winner physically.
But a total loser for me.

23 December 2008

Latest Pixie

Nahh.. but my face memang aneh!

Sort off la kot. I hate my hair!

Happy face?
Yes! I am excited.

Somewhere i can swim.

Last Sunday. Hoho.

I need a new flip flop. I love my jeans. I need a hair-do, again. Eat more!

p.s: Pst.. my pose my kind off old school kan?

21 December 2008

Gadis Biru

What I can conclude with my 2 days job ni, I am really enjoying it! Really-really do had fun with the promoters and the crew. Maybe because most of us pun sekepala.

I did promote bout SUKSES simpack, do I really do need to explain here? Malas-malas. But then our target is Indonesian, so I did need to speak in Indonesia. The girls semua hebat dowh tukar their language once dapat the target. After few times of promoting baru la dapat mengayat mengancam sikit. Hihi… our place of work this time, semua lubuk-lubuk orang Indonesia.

But then there is one time our dealer leave us kat pasat malam full of orang Nepal and Bangladesh. They don’t even know how to speak in English. Hampeh tol, sales memang drop habis that time. Next time I want to take Nepal or Bangla classes, so boleh communicate ngan diorg. ;p

Last day I did hang out with the girls. Ajak diorang pusing JB. Well, I really enjoy being with them. We talked about everything. We laughed like crazy and do crazy new stuffed together. It’s been a long time since my last date with the promoters. Promoters’ rocks babeh!!


Gadis biru version II. But this time baju kene pulang. Gila kedekut management. :((

Kami si gadis MUKTAMAD. As stated kat our baju. ;p

From the left: Liza, Tini, Me and Erin. Gonna miss them. Much!

20 December 2008


I am tired!

p.s: I am tired with you too, tired of missing you. :)

19 December 2008

Owh. today.

Officially I already go to Jusco Bukit Indah!

I love the croc’s shop! But the crowds make me sick. So after 2 hours of window shopping. I’ve decided to go home. Maybe I’ll go there again soon, I want to buy something. Ramai sangat orang tadi malas nak queue! Guys, confirm kat situ TAKDE movie. Okay.

Don’t try Starbuck’s new dark cherry mocha! The worst beverage that I ever try from Starbuck. Sampai pening dowh. Grrrrr…

I’m out for my part-time job! At last I have something to do with EXTRA-EXTRA pocket money. =D

I miss collection.

I miss my kampung!! Well, time ni kat playground rumah my uncle. At that moment even my dad pun main mende tu. Hahaha.. can u see my happy face? Can u? ;p

Okay. Muka tak besalah gila kan? Btw, i miss my skin time ni. Well, completely fair! Tade la putih but kaler sekata. Haha. After survey camp, camping, bola baling & futsal tournament habis burn. But nak salahkan siapa pun, i love outdoor sport!!

This is my longest natural hair. Heee.. i miss this hair. Each time tgk pic ni mmg sure i will say, i want my hair to be like that! But dah tak boleh coz my hair now sgt gila tak cantik & dah tak lebat & dah tak hitam macam tu. Salahkan the chemical!!

Latest photo! My pipi did tembam a lil' bit, KOT. Hoho...

p.s: Click photo to enlarge. =)

18 December 2008

A girl with a broken heart.

Yeah, I can still remember the pain.

Each time I’m being alone I feel so weak. I can’t think of anything. Life means nothing but miserable. I feels like giving up in anything, everything. I feel like want to commit a suicide so I can end all this feeling, the pain deep inside my heart. Yeah, everything means nothing to me that time, what I feel is only the pain. Pain of losing something I treasure, pain of being betrayed by someone that I trust. The pains that I need to face after make the decision to love someone strange.

Yes I am weak at that moment. I cried like every minute. I think negatively. Everything is blank and I lost my hope. Friends do come and give their supports. Their common expected words, “Be strong Yana”. But they don’t feel the pain, I did and it is killing me. Again I admit, I am weak coz I have a fragile heart. Day goes by days, week goes by weeks and month goes by months. I slowly learn to accept the fate. Life must go on.

They said, we can forgive but we can’t forget. But did they ever consider what my heart feels? Yeah, it is complicated. I wish I could make it simple, settle everything down and have a restart. But it is not that easy. It won’t be easy.

The pain will end as the time goes. But here, deep inside my heart, it won’t be the same anymore. Cause it is once broke.

Hey kawan, I will always be with you. You helped me before, we shared it together. Why this time when you needed someone you forgetting me? I’ll always be here to hear and share the tears. Cause I still remember the pain.

I will say it again, BE STRONG SAYANG!!

Sorry, i love her.

Yes. I am ignoring you.
Can’t you see it clearly?
Or you want me to say it out loud?
Or maybe you are waiting a letter from my lawyer?

Let me make it clear, again.
I won’t expect anything from you.
Even a scintilla of virus, I won’t.
Cause’ I know, it won’t happen.

Owh, I nearly forget something.
I want my favorite vase back and my gold fish.
You can keep my CD’s collection if you want too.

Well, let’s move on.
You can flirt like you always did before.
And I can party-ing like everyday.
No more stupid ring to stop us.

I’m glad to leave you for Katy.
I’m glad to choose her than a moron like you.
I’m glad to have a life back.
As a lesbian.



First of all, I really feel sangat gila guilty sebab terhilang Dya’s url before. But then I found it and dah link miss cantik itu semula. =)

Yesterday me and my sis do open our precious chest. Well, peti yang full of our childhood photo tu. Both of us just can’t stop laughing each time we changed the pages. Each photo ada sentimental values seh. Serious, if one day someone nak blackmail me, memang the pictures will be a good item.
What I can see from my childhood world kan. Since kindergarden or baby lagi I tak pernah ada rambut panjang. Let me say, paling panjang pun time first year kat UTM. So, can u guys imagine, me having ‘this’ type of hair dari kecik. Worst I always having short hair yang macam Rihanna tu. Nak jugak Rihanna. Hihi… and since kecik my rambut ni macam sangat messy dan senget. Yes, senget. I love to cut my front hair by my own in front of the mirror. But lastly mesti senget. Like mesti tau, cuma nampak ngan tak nampak je la kan. But then, I still love my hair. Haha.
Then, kecik-kecik memang style guna seluar kaler-kaler eh? Me and my sis have lots of coloured pant. Pink, green, red, light blue and yellow. Yes yellow! Haha. Eventhough now pun I only have one red jean. Tu pun sangat jarang guna. So, my sis keep saying that kecik-kecik lagi she already being a diva coz sangat daring in dressing. Heh. Tapi if they want us to wear back all those cloth sure my sis akan buat muka.
I miss my house kat Simbang. Most of our picture time childhood kat simbang and that house sangat gila takde furniture macam sekarang. Well, I like my house now, but dah tak spacious macam dulu tau. Hihi… but then when I did ask my sis dia nak pindah balik to our previous house tak, she said no. Obviously maybe because of our neighbour kot. Hahaha.
Moral of the entry, I really do miss my childhood moment.

Right now I’m having chocolate fudge from Secret Recipe. Haha. And my choc stock is ready in the fridge! Yippie~

Yes, yes. I am on my way to gain my weight. So, goodbye skinny-old-me. Wish me luck dear!

p.s: Why I’m being so happy tonight? Hihi…

17 December 2008

Tag dari Faten.

Do you think you are hot?
Hot, tidak. Hahaha.. i am gorgeous! (perasan kentang!)

Upload a favourite picture of you.

Why do you like that picture?
The latest picture among the others la kan. Sangat dah gila lama tak snap pixie after my hair cut. Grrrr...

When was the last time you ate pizza?
Yesterday. Hihi..

The last song you listen to?
You're so gay - Katy Perry

What name you prefer beside yours?
Annabella or maybe Isabella. Sangat suka Bella. Apehal tah.

People to tag?
♥ Sis Irena
♥ Affan Azami
♥ Farra
♥ Epa
♥ Khalif

Who is number one?
My favourite soulmate. Hihi. I love you!

Number three is having relationship with?
Hihi... scandalicious. So no one knows. ;p

Say something about number five?
Rookies dalam blogging ni. So tag ini adalah present ok.

How about number four?
I want to meet her!!! Wondering when. :(

And who is number two?
My favourite guy for now. Hihi..

16 December 2008


1. What is your phone number?
- I won’t publish it here.

2. Who do you miss?
- Girlfriends.

3. Who do you love?
- Family & friends.

4. How are you?
- Fine but not in the good mood. A jerk pop up today ruined my mood.

5. How many siblings do you have?
- 3

6. Where were you yesterday?
- Home. Doing nothing.

7. Rain fall down, what do you think of?
- It is time to sleep. =D

8. What was the last dream you had about?
- Something about having new person in my life. Hurm.. weird!

9. Are you a lover or hater?
- Both. But mostly depends on my mood.

10. Have you ever been kissed on the cheeks ?
- Who doesn’t?

11. When was the last time you cried? Why?
- Few weeks ago kot.

12. What is wrong with you?
- Yeah, what’s wrong with me? I really hate to have these feeling!

13. Are you a player?
- I wish I could be one. Muahahahahahaha.

14. Are you lonely?
- Who knows? ;p

15. When was the last time you hangout? with?
- Last week. With my bro.

16. Will you kiss someone tomorrow?
- I don’t know.

17. If you're given $1000, what will you do?
- The reason they giving me money? Saving KOT.

18. What will you do tomorrow?
- My organizer is empty. So no specific activity.

19. Are you mad?
- Kinda. Ergh. The presence of ‘it’ make me feel so stupid.

20. Who's your girlfriend?
- My sis.

21. kissed o hugs?
- Hugs.

22. father o mother?
- Both. I just too depend on them.

23. sista o brotha?
- Both. Hihi.

24. money o lyfe?
- Emm.. tricky dowh. Money do leads to a better life. So it will be money. Hahaha.

25. eat o drink?
- Nak tercekik hape makan tade air?

26. study o work?
- Study ++ part time job. Muahahaha. Still get the monthly allowances and payment.

27. shopping o chilling?
- Chilling.

28. dancing o singing?
- Singing!

29. pink o black?

30. cold o hot?
- Both.

31. snow o fire?
- Snow.

32. cooking o washing?
- Washing.

33. hp o pc?
- Toptop.

34. cola o sprite?
- Cola.

35. coupled o married?
- Single tade?

36. chicken o beef?
- Chicken! Makan ayam tiap-tiap hari pon takpe.

37. chocolate o ice cream?
- Choc. Haiya… my choc stock dah habis. Need to buy it tomorrow.

38. funny o serious?
- Funny. But when it comes to serious matter be serious la.

39. miss o love?
- Hohoho. Hate?

40. cried o killed?
- Killed. Killing is the best way to solve a problem. HAHAHA.

i hate to be this way!


Did you ever feels this but when you look around, no one there to be with you. Stucked alone. With all these feeling haunting you all night. I'm blaming myself coz being so weak and fragile.

Yes, i am stupid.


15 December 2008


Dear Umi Maria,


On your birthday I wish you much pleasure and joy, I hope all of your wishes come true. May each hour and minute be filled with delight and your birthday be perfect for you!

p.s: Did i need to wait for another year to meet u?

Lots of love & missing you damn much,
Diana Naubi

13 December 2008

i miss~

I’m way too thrilled to hear all of their new songs. Yes I am t.A.T.u fan. Reason? They have unique voices and their song is so different from others. Hihi… and they are so-like-a-lesbian-sweet-couple. Eventhough they are not. Well, the album haven’t sale at M’sia yet, so I’m downloading it now. Excited!!!!!

p.s: I have their original copy for their previous albums. Gosh. I miss them!

12 December 2008

oh today.

Gd night _________.

Last night I did message some of my friend this message. Well, to those who received it. I really do thanking/missing/remembering you. I really do appreciate your presence in my life. =)



Thanks for the present. I just received it this morning. Thanks dude. Really appreciate it. I love everything about it! Red is my favourite colour and there is my name at it. Thanks-thanks-thanks. I don’t know to stop saying it!

p.s: Promise I won’t eat it. =)


I am Isabella.

Like Beyonce and her second name Sasha Fierce. Me too! I already have my second name, Isabella. Isabella is my emotional name. Hihi… can I said like that? Well, certain time I’m being too fragile, easily crying, shy and damn different from miss-talkative-Diana. So I really enjoy having a second name for my second personality.

Did I have only two personalities? Maybe moreeeeee. ;p

11 December 2008


I’m watching Cicakman2 just now. What I can say is I am quite disappointed with it. Maybe I expect more while I should not expect anything. Aish… at least they had tried. Why I always complaining?

I started eating my medicine back. Gosh, I sleepy like all day kot. And I have a big appetite of eating now. Nyum-nyum. But hopefully I’m not getting sick like last time. Owh, how I wish I can turn back time. When I was chubby for a while tu. I want to jog, sit-ups and do things to maintain my weight. Now, I just a skinny unconfident girl. Really? =p

Enough mumbling for now.


Confession of a shopaholic.

I seriously can’t wait for it to release on 2009. Gosh. I am so excited about it! I watched the trailer like many times. Hihi. Over-acted!

p.s: Please… no pirates dvd. I want to watch it first at the cinema.

At last!

Big at last!! I can use the internet. Heck! What happen to my modem? I already complain it many times to streamyx but it is still the same. Let me say it this way this time, streamyx sucks!

Ok, enough with it. Better to start mumbling before I’ll get disconnected after this.


People say the love the truth, but in reality they want to believe that which they love is the true.

I’m once having this type of problem. I just face something that I want too. I dump everything that I don’t want to think. Or maybe I dump something that I hate the most. Another few days, weeks or maybe months I just stop thinking of it. Okay, I’m a lil’ bit facing it now. Not truly facing, but I started to move forward. Haha. Truth is always gonna be hurt, that’s why I hate the truth. I learn something precious now, never trust no one especially the one you love (excluding your family).

OMG, I’m talking shits!


Owh. I did something to my hair yesterday. Gosh, seriously, I hate my new hair. I won’t talk about it much, so you’re lucky to see me in my everyday-bad -hair-day mode after this. Haha. I just can’t wait for it to grow longer so that I can do something different after this. Btw, I’m not cutting it, just an inch of trimming. And do something terrible. Gosh-gosh! I don’t want to talk about it. End!

I already watched Wild Child. To be honest, I want to have blonde hair. Can I? It won’t happen unless I did dye my hair. But I was like, am I crazy? Another crappy thought of mine. I won’t do that for sure. I love her handbag, all of it!!!

I’m going to watch Cicakman after this(i mean in the morning). I just don’t know why I’m being so supportive with this movie, maybe it is not good as spiderman or superman or any other international superheroes. But at least the KRU team did try to be different. I love the different!

p.s: Maybe I just want to see Aznil. Wondering… =)

09 December 2008

I'm back!

I already deleted all unwanted stuff in my head. Haha. Frankly speaking, maybe I still not totally okay but I am sure I’m getting better soon. Very-very-very soon. Sure! Sorry if I’m being too gila-mengada-emotional-terlebih. Thanks for the advice and the words dear friends.

I just want to congratulate my cousin Kak Ety for her wedding last weekend. I hope her marriage will be last longer like forever. I also want to celebrate our new baby of the family, Nur Nabila. I’m officially being aunty now. Gosh, I started to fall in love with her from the first time I touch her! I’ll pay her a visit more often after this.

To someone I’ve been admire since I am in a first year, yet till now I still have a knot of excitement when I hear about you. Thanks for the simple-short-text-message. I am so-so-so damn excited when I received it. Imagining Theo Walcott text me, but this is more realistic.

Why pretend to be there while you don't even care?
It is just another disappointment.

I’m facing the reality. And because of it, I’m let ‘it’ go. Hoping I can change something to be different. Haha. Sometimes, I’m trying to be at your super-complicated-situation. But what I can conclude clearly is, we are different in many ways. And I realized something, I am stronger, braver and matured than you. Guys are born to be a leader if you can’t be one, you are a total loser. Again, I am sorry for everything.

p.s: Damn lazy to activate my FB and FS. Haha. Let it be. =)

03 December 2008


Diana is away.

Status : Not okay!

I wish I could share, but I can’t. It is all stucked and I just don’t know how to figure it. So I really do need a break. Have my own private time to think and decide. Let me put myself in a rehab. So long dear!

02 December 2008


Naqiuddin @ QQ @ Barthugs
Sending birthday blessings filled with love and peace and joy wishing sweetest things happen right before your eyes.

Can't wait to celebrate with you tomorrow! Hihi..

p.s : Brit, happy birthday to you too. Love you!


Thanks to those who still remembering my birthday and wishing me.

My 1st present is from my siblings. Thanks for the wish and the kiss ok, not kiss, licking my face. Ergh. I really do appreciate it. Haha. Well, Sis Irena, you’re the best! Thanks for everything dear sis, I really do love you, you know it.

Mark, thanks for calling. Seriously, I am less expected that you will call me, but you did. Thanks dear bestfriend! Hope to see you this weekend. I really do missing you. =)

Dear mom & dad. Thanks for everything. You both give me a perfect life. Thanks for taking care of me since I was a baby. Well, I’m might be not your best daughter but I really do love both of you. Thanks for the sacrifice dear parent. Thanks coz giving me chance to have a perfect life. Thanks for all the support. I am nothing without you both, you know it.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Thanks you guys!
matin // ep // matun // irena // batax // anis // nazim // izran // acik // armh // jijot // mark // minmin // huda nadirah // ril // dady nick // umi maria // kau amir // alif // yanti // aiz // mumy lydia // affan // nada liyana // farradeyla //abg nash // yatyat // anny // khyrel // jia hui // eacha // najib // hazim // hanim // cik yah // illehyana // hawa syafiq // aiman // kala // nabil // huda danari // amoy // shuhadak // dakkolin // hanim // najwa // shahazmi // amir psyco // caca // tebu // yaya

Thousands of thanks you guys. Getting older! Hate it.

01 December 2008


Chelsea 1 - 2 Arsenal

Arsenal scored 3 goals. The Chelsea’s goal is own goal from Arsenal player remember? Haha. I am so happy!

Second best gift for tonight. Thanks Arsenal.

Btw, Theo Walcott is on his way to Malaysia. That’s why he is not playing tonight. We’re gonna have a great date for tomorrow. I just can’t wait!
(Ok, this is way to ‘perasan’ mode.)

p.s : Full entry will be posted tomorrow.