27 October 2008

Truth Hurts

It just can't lie.

When the truth revealed, we just can't stop fighting. Blaming each other said those harsh words. It just won't stop. Maybe we satisfied to see each other down after the big fight. Well, i hate to know the truth that he loving someone else beside me. I hate to know that he flirt with that hot chic. I hate to know that he still contacting with his ex. I hate to know he is with another cute girl. I just hate things that can make i am not the one anymore.

Well, my first BF left me because another girl. Since that, i really do scared to get dumped anymore. Well, losing someone that i really trust makes me feels like a jerk. Not a good GF maybe. But then i should expect that as i heard the rumours spread. The last thing i remember, he called me one night and tell me that he did had crush on the other girl. I just let him go as i want to see him happy. Owh bitch, you know he have a gf but you still wants him. Once i let him go, you playing bitch with him and married with other guy. I should go in front of you and slap you twice. Btw to that ex, serve you right dudeeee.

I hate backstabber, who doesn't? Well, back to my 'neraka dunia'. I trust everybody like i always does before until one day i heard somebody did said bad things bout me on my back. The worst part is, i did trust that person to the max at that moment. But she spreading all my stories to the others in the toilet. Unlucky them, i was in the toilet while they are busy slandering on me. Heh. I just walk out on them and telling them thanks coz being a GOOOOOOD friend for me before. Since that i hereby said that they are my greatest foe ever.

I might be not a perfect girl. I admit, i am childish, crazy, uncontrolable and psyco. But i do have these feeling that can make me feel uncomfortable. I need someone to calm me, not someone to blame. I need someone to shade some light in my life not somebody just to get me through the night. I just need someone called a soulmate, a person who really do know me.





Hidup ini memang palat, tapi esok masih ada.
I'm looking foward for a better tomorrow. Live life to the max!



p.s : Bintang itu makin jauh. Makin pudar. Lalu menghilang dalam gelap malam. Tinggal aku sendiri teraba-raba dalam kegelapan.

2 comments:

patheticwonder's what?? said...

yana...
im so sorry..
im not a gud fren..am i...
always make u feel uncomfortable..
sowee yana...
i noe sumtimes my act hurt u...
im not a good fren...
i really regret dat..
hoe u still accept me though im not d good one...
yana...
im so sorry...
i really love u....im sorry...:(..
i noe what u've been through...stupid me coz dun really show that...
yana..be brave...i really want 2 see ur smiling face...really miss u yana...................

Diana said...

ahhhh...
eim, u macam star kat matrix tu. Thanks taw sbb be a really good friend for me there. I sayang u sangat-sangat. I do!! u pon tawu kan i mmg anti sket ngan sum of the person kat sane. Alemak. I malas seh nak ingat.

Sumthing that i'll keep till i die is u guys:
my roomate.
classmate-dilla,tamboon,lerk
family cilaker-dady,mummy,umi,ajim,john,psylo,yaya,syami,naqib

hahaha.
thanks eim, for EVERYTHING!